Does not wanting to wake up count?

[Steve]

I found myself wishing I just wouldn't wake up in the morning. Am I suicidal? I don't think so. I couldn't actively do something to end my life so am I just depressed over the intense and constant pain from my back surgery? I just wish it would let up once in awhile.

 

[Angela]

I don't think you're suicidal @Steve. I believe depression is common after any kind of surgery.

There have been times where I thought that I would be better off dead but Im not suicidal. Especially after the crap year I've had. 

I pray that it will get better for you Steve. It will take time and patience. You'll get there. Keep the faith.

:hug

 

[Catsmother]

It's not surprising you feel depressed @Steve having any kind of surgery is going to take it's toll on anyone. 

 

[Steve]

Thank you Angela and Catsmother. The pain has been easing up so I'm taking a whole lot less narcotics than I was. :good

 

[Angela]

That's good to hear @Steve.  Ill continue to pray for your full and quick recovery.

 

[Shortie]

I don't believe you are suicidal but you are going through what anyone would go through after major surgery like that. 

I had major surgery myself back in 2014 and back then I was also in a mentally abusive relationship. The weight of the relationship and recovering from the surgery made me severely depressed and I had thoughts of suicide which pushed me to get the help I needed. I am now out of that situation and in a better life but I do still suffer from depression that is managed. 

I would advise you to speak to someone though about how you feel, always remember, there is someone out there who will listen and help you and you are not alone.