Thank you Angela and Catsmother. The pain has been easing up so I'm taking a whole lot less narcotics than I was. :good

dying

I found myself wishing I just wouldn't wake up in the morning. Am I suicidal? I don't think so. I couldn't actively do something to end my life so am I just depressed over the intense and constant pain from my back surgery? I just wish it would let up once in awhile. :sad

My brain is not in a happy place right now ... I almost posted this in the Depression board but I'm not depressed in the sense that I don't want to do anything or have anyone bother me. I'm 69 years old so why would I put my body through the pain it's going through? I could have just been just...

Never. I'm too big to be bullied and cantankerous as well.

I have 3 brothers and one sister, all younger than me.